i need to make some things clear…..

i didn’t play shawn the way he’s making everyone seem. he told me that he didn’t feel the same, he doesn’t love me, and that he didn’t want it anymore. i was told this 3 or 4 different times. for me it was easy to move on because there’s no point in me being unhappy and staying with someone that doesn’t love me. i wasn’t trying to be an asshole at all. im not even sure why he’s so upset when he kept telling me that he doesn’t want it. he was the one that went away for school and decided to live up to everyone else’s expectations, forgetting all about his girlfriend. i just needed someone here with me, someone who wants all their time to be with me, someone who was able to make me laugh and be happy. well, i have that now and i couldn’t be any happier. im sure shawn is happy too, he got what he wanted. so please don’t hate me for what i did, i couldn’t sit on that ship and sink anymore. i still loved him but it wasn’t worth it anymore. this had been going on for the past 4 months also, so i feel no shame in moving on like i did. i don’t hate him nor do i have any hard feelings, some things just weren’t meant to be. what we had was nice and i’ll never forget it, but i can never go back to him. i am truly happy with kenneth and everything has been wonderful! i am extremely lucky and blessed! :D